You could be happy and I won’t know
But you weren’t happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it’s madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were?
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blurred
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I’d been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it’s all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don’t think, just do
More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
The last song I ever sent him, its been 4 months now, the first two months were hell. I didn’t eat, didn’t sleep and lost 20 pounds. They were the best 2 years of my life with him, he set my soul on fire and made me really believe soul mates exist. Im sorry I never noticed when you didn’t want to be with me anymore. You cheated and betrayed me multiple times and would always forgive youIts been four months and I know im a completely different person. I tried meeting other guys but backed out. I know im not ready, I dont know when ill ever be ready to trust people again. I forgive you for the pain you brought me and only wish you are happy now with your new life, chasing your dream. Now its my turn to find my dreams. Thank you for teaching me how to love AJ.