I understood it immediately. It helped having lived the life I have lived. This song is my favorite on the record which is one of the saddest records I have ever heard. Being a gay man in my 30s I grew up in school a loner drooling over the kids that bullied me. One day in a gay rag I saw my chief bully in an for a gay porn company. Also the subject of AWOL marines.. I met people in San Diego that had no though of tomorrow. I guess they just never went back to base but were in the run. Beautiful boys just out of boot camp wrestling with who they are and their life. Porn producer hit gold and leave broken people worse off. Gay culture is a mixed bag. Porn is hard for me to reconcile even though I did porn in my youth. The straight boys have said things to me about their journey through making money from gay lust that break my heart. I dont know how to suck the poison out of our culture which is full of the very best people. Taking advantage of the young and discarding and humiliating them was what I witnessed so this song really means a lot to me